The time of my life

I'm trying to figure out how I've changed over the months and I think I'm quite satisfied with what I am now.

No more openly cynical, secretly worried Jocelyn. I am happy with what I have and if I can have something else, that would be nice, but usually something else is rarely nice so it's best to keep a status quo.
No more pessimistic, negative, the sky is going to drop on me the next moment Jocelyn. I'm more optimistic, more safely hopeful.
No more I don't know where life is heading Jocelyn, I made my choice and I'm going to go all the way, make the best of what I have and make it work for me. I know what I want when I'm 30, when I am 40. So I just need to map it out more concisely and turn my dreams into plans and actions and succeed.

No more life is a torture Jocelyn, life is amazing, I have so much, and I can have so much more. So much to have, so much to give, life is more than what I can ever imagine it to be.

No more why can't I have this, why can't I have that Jocelyn. These Few months have made me learn to be careful of what you wish for. What you want may not be what you need, what you want may just end up being the opposite of what you imagine it to be, so why harp and harbor pointless hopes on what is unnecessary.

I hope I remember what I am now and keep that up in uni. I know things are going to get tough but I am strong and I will only get stronger. I can do it!