Hero

I just want to snuggle in my bed, press my face against my pillow, envelop my body under the covers and my soft sweater and forget momentarily of all the work I have to do, my responsibilities, my wants.

Is there anyway I can lose myself without losing out at the end?

Anything other than a yes is no.
Anything other than staying is go.
Anything less than I love you is lying.
Lying lying lying.

I know this life is a beautiful one

I am exhausted. Thoroughly exhausted mentally. I feel like I was such a bad company at today's dinner but I really couldn't muster much energy. Meeting everyone makes me feel more upset than I was. It doesn't make sense right? But it's just a overwhelming awareness of how you need them but somehow they can't always be with you?
I'm talking shit and I just feel horrid. I need my sleep.

Would you give it a little chance

All I want is nothing more than having a home to go back to and knowing that where I want to be is right where I am.

“You know what girls are like. They turn twenty or twenty-one and all of a sudden they start having these concrete ideas. They get super realistic. And when that happens, everything that seemed so sweet and lovable about them begins to look ordinary and depressing.”

― Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

Selfish

I've tried sitting down, thinking hard, what I really want, something I need that's not what others have and I don't which made me want them, something that would make me feel better about the world, something that would make me happier, better, lighter. Something that would fill me with the breathes that life sucked out of my lungs, something that would flow into my bloodstreams and make me heart beat with a reason.

They say that people don't actually want to do good. They just want people to see them doing good so they would find them good and ultimately feel good about themselves.

Do you see that in yourself?

I wish you the same intensity

Work is piling up and I've so many revisions and projects and tests and readings to complete. I must not be overwhelmed, I must work harder. I had a wonderful day today. Sometimes there are moments where you just let yourself go, your give up being uptight and careful and you find yourself lighter. I hope the upcoming week will be kind to me. Till then...

I saw a picture of this israeli soldier saying his prayer at the western wall, otherwise known as the wailing wall. It makes me want to scream and throw a fit to someone or something amidst my struggle to read and understand these poems with a splitting headache and flu.

I am feeling very very tired.

La paloma

Listening to this Spanish song i fell in love with from watching the movie it was in. It makes me want to fly to a foreign country, immerse myself in their culture, learn their new language and live a very simple life.

Di

“Your love
Should never be offered to the mouth of a
Stranger,
Only to someone
Who has the valor and daring
To cut pieces of their soul off with a knife
Then weave them into a blanket
To protect you.”


Hafiz, The Divan

Doing some south Asia studies research, I have flu and my nose is dripping non stop:(

I must study. Gogogo