Take me now

I WANT GOSSIP GIRL NOWWWWW!
CW just comes up with soo many previews of all the stuff that is coming up and its soooo tempting!
Chuck and Blair and then Chuck and Vanessa and Blair and Nate and Dan and miss Car and serena with NO ONE. omg.
i hope gg ends soon, though i will hate for it to end. i'm going to go study really hard after gg and together. yesyes. must. mid years is like in 2 months time according to C xiao jie. haha yes you cheryl. thanks for buying shoes for my pet! and for waiting for me today! you are a good best friend :D
bye!

"i'm losing her"
"well then fight for her"

give me something to hold on to

School has been really tiring.
i can't catch up with a math and e math.
and i've done horribly this term.

Miss yeo has this innate ability to tell what you're thinking from your expression. its scary in a way cause she probably could see every single shit you're currently thinking. i guess its experience. i'm surprised she haven't talked to me yet. But i guess she will be soon. its like you're having a conversation with someone who knows what you're thinking in your head. its scary. whatever. all i want to do now is just forget about everything and bake heart shaped cookies with pale pink icing and read my storybooks and just freaking screw up O's.

But i guess i just have to just work hard, work harder. and just believe in myself. Anyway,i went home alone today, which gives me time to think over stuff. yesterday i went home and sharon with abi and sharon said i seemed to be in this bubble which she can't poke through. i was lost in my thoughts i guess. i didn't even hear them calling me.
&today, as i walked home. it started to rain small little dops of rain. its peaceful, cause everything else didn't seem to matter at that moment.
the rain relaxes me.
sigh. i'm really really confused now.
till then... bye


"Damn it, kate, what else do you want?"
"Nothing you can give me. Nothing we can give each other."

Like poles

School has been good. but waking up is too hard.
today is a happy day. its Odelia's birthday.
HAPPYYYY BIRTHDAY ODELIA!!!!!!
thanks for waiting for me to finish physics remedial and for your constant encouragment and jokes that make me laugh like hell. it has beeen really nice to know you! i'm sooo sorry i didn't manage to buy your present today, but i will, really really soon! may all your dreams come true, and i know it will, so have faith in yourself!
Anyway, i've watched To get her. and realise if you just link them up, its together. its soooo cute right?! haha! i love rainie. shes a awesome actress. and i don't think her hair is ugly. it suits her role.
okay. i don't have much to say. soooo bye!
cyaaaaaaa sooooonnnnnn.
getwelllsooon juliana! and shi. come back tmr. you lazy pigggg!

why life is really unfair(ANGRYYY)

Staying at home is really boring. i'm dying from boredom.
i sleep tooo much. i didn't even study at all.i'm going to die just catching up with school work.Nyway, miss yeo called early in the morning like 7.45. like obviously i was sleeping. woke up to update her on my condition and she was like you've to get clearance leave yaddaa yaddaaa. sigh. i was even thinking of going back to school tmr for mock spa but i don't think the doctor is going to allow. my sores are like mosquito bites. and its not even concentrated like at one spot. i don't have fever or like loss of appetite. no sores on my mouth yet. so why can't i freaking go to school?! this is so unfair/sad/horrible.
i'mm feeeelinggg sooo bored. i sleep more than 12 hours. and just rot at home when my spots/bites are not even close to pictures i found on the net on ppl who have hfmd. freakkkkkk!!!!!!
):):):

Picture Post

If you're wondering why i'm so nice to post pictures, it's because i'm super free. i've mc for one whole week cause i've contracted mild hand foot mouth disease. i know! like this is for young kids right, but it is caused by virus in the air(-.-) and people with low immune system gets it. so i've only like 6 spots on my hands and legs. nothing on my mouth yet and no fever. so its not that bad. but i somehow got flu, which makes me really tired, but not too tired for rainie new drama (!!!!). anyway, thanks to everyone who wished me get well soon, i can't go out cause its contagious. miss courageous crab is coming over to my house tmr cause she thinks she very clever, will not get the disease. hahha. miss crab, please help me bring my chem textbook and my mopiko. the rashes are quite itchy. if you're seeing this. well, i'll still sms you later.
okie dokie. i'm going to sleep. bye!
pss: i sound really cheerfu; and its not because of the one week mc kay, haha okay. that really helped make me happy. but one week of missed lessons. i imagine how i'm going to suffer when i'm back. see you guys soon! miss you!!! i want tobleron(did i spell it right?)

Give only what is yours to give

Valentines day is heart shaped balloons, chocolates, flowers, pictures, smiles, love songs, laughter, jealousy and happiness.
haha, that sums up yesterday and today. happiness is what i felt spending valentines day with my family and obviously i feel jealous looking at happy couples. who wouldn't? well unless you're cold blooded or a person who can live without love.

Nyway Cedar Fiesta was good, had fun catching up with eli. Cedar is definitely more fun loving than tk. oh, and valentines day is tuition with sharon and zing and nice female classmates and a bunch of insensitive opposite sex. stupid sexist bunch of cowardly morons. they say girls are stupid slower blah blah blah. i was really controlling my inner anger/hatred/venom that is almost going to burst out, and kill all of them. goodness me, i've never met such low life creatures. well this is generally out to those who don't respect females. take back your sexist comments and go get a life, oh no. i forget you don't have one, well at least learn how to. cause if you don't start thinking, you'll never ever have a girlfriend. really, what were all of you thinking before you said whatever you said.

on the bright side. i've learnt to control my anger. really. sometimes i feel sooo angry i can really explode. it has been so long since i felt that way. which brings me back to the times where i've childish boys as classmates. sigh.

On the side note, next gossipgirl episode is on 16th march Carina!!! i know you'll explode if you see this. haha. go catch previews of gossip girl at youtube. its interesting, its about gossip girl guide, two videos. one is "blairanoid" and the other is "ment-whore". bet you'll love it.

bye! & happy valentines day!

i want change

Exam week is finally over.
i'm not exactly that happy cause i think i did badly.
i'm tired of settling for just passes and i tried my best alrdy.
i think i need to change.
everything.
from my attitude
to my goals
to my lifestyle.
i hope i stick to it.

i'm tired.

School is horrible. Trng was cancelled but i didnt make full use of the time. nevertheless, i guess i'm totally not touching the computer from today onwards to next thursday. after thursday, i'll rush home and catch up on 6 episodes of The Concerto. Eddie Pang and Yan yan is perfect for each other. i love them!!!
Okay, i've nothing much to say alrdy.
bye!



"i want more"
"so you always have. more what?"
"more everything."

16

HELLOO!
I want to thank everyone who wished me happy birthday and gave me presents and all that. thank you!
Thank you to Cheryl Emm and Carina who arranged to cake eating ceremony. i love the candles. The cake is also super delicious! thank you all for all your efforts put in. i'm really touched. thank you!
Thank you to Seowshi and Jia yi who tricked me into believing you got me a non practical present. love the tee shirt. Thank you!
And to Cheryl, for the keychain, cake and everything you've done and planned. thank you soo much darling!
And to Odelia, haha. taking a break now! thank you for your kit kat.
And to hildy for your bracelet, i love it! thank you!
And to Ju, Zing Sharon and Abi, thank you for wishing me happy birthday, and the belated birthday present.
And to Renice and Alvina who remembered. thank you soo much!
Love you all. you guys are theee BEST!

Today is a just a normal day. its just feels like my birthday cause everyone is wishing me happy birthday and giving me presents. Nevertheless i feel really toched.
After School was Swensens and tampines mall. Odelia is by date the funniest person i met.She's too daring, funny, comical and haha. i don't know lah. just so funny. Plus shes really motivated to do well and all the effort she put into studying just shows me how much i can actually do/ should do. you're my idol too!
Anyways, i'm too lazy to upload pictures. yes lah. i know. haha will send whoever wants picture soon, so you guys can go upload instead.

Anyways, gossip girl latest episode is just OMG. DAN IS SUCHA MALE BITCH! though he just broke off with S it doesnt mean he can run off and bed his teacher! and that teacher is also sucha a biatch. how can she seduce dan! I love how episode 17 ends. like the irony. i love irony.

I'm going. bye!
Happy birthday Jocelyn! and whoever birthday falls on 5th feb too :D

when it all falls apart

i've not watched a new episode of gossipgirl.
i've not started my revision my next week CA week.
i've this deep deep hatred for studying.
i've not been catching up on topics/subjects.
ive been wallowing in self pity for too long.
i think i want/have always wanted someone to throw me a life vest.
i want to see hope and i want to be assured everything is going to turn out fine at the end.
i want to be happy.
But why it does it seems so impossible to even achieve what i at least want/need.

i'm turning 16 in two days time.
happy birthday Jocelyn