Give me one reason to stay here before I turn right back around

Feeling so anxious now :( got my September work schedule and yes, why the hell am I even working.... I was thinking with aisec and literary society out of the question for this sem, I could at least still work for September? And I was writing down the days I've work in the schedule and the assignments due and presentations and tests and all. And everything looks so horrid.... I'm worried about 2102 test, all the daunting presentations and the project meetings that hasn't been lined up yet.... Sigh.... I don't know if I can pull up my cap this sem, I'm trying to think positively, I mean I don't have cca or any other commitment, by right I should be able to deal with working and studying? Yes/no? 

Ugh. Hate having a reason to whine. And my stomach feels uncomfortable with the food I stuffed myself with just now.... Too much carbs and oil. And Mac breakfast tmr with Cheryl and jiayi before work at 9.30. I don't even feel like eating anything till lunch and I wannnaaaa sleeepppp. But it's 220 and all I'm doing is running through the days, trying to find more ways to manage them so I can possibly squeeze in more study sesh and what about time for doing absolutely nothing? Sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh 

You know how they always say there are certain things in life you can't ever get back and one of them is time? But they also say the best thing you can ever give to anyone is time? 

Ok I must not be like that. I must remember how there are people who managed their time so well they managed to get good grades, join so many ccas and even find time to club. God knows how they do it but yes. I mean I can deal with projects, working and studying. Right? Hahaha! Goodnight 

this youthful heart can love you and give you what you need

The pictures hold so many important memories in my life from when i was 17 till now. All the people important in my life, how we grow old together, how we changed, learnt and experienced life together and separately.

its 2.42 am, i'm addicted to Tracy Chapman's Give me a reason, such soul in the way she sing. I don't know why i am typing this but i just... i just feel so full, instead of feeling like things are slipping away, i feel like everything is overflowing in  my life. i feel like i need to tip myself empty, to be re-filled with something different. is it strange? i don't know. maybe i need some sleep. 

Goodnight

Life in pictures