On my dinner break currently. Today is my secondary day working at expo and I can officially say my feet has die multiple times. This is crazy. Standing for 9 hours straight. I don't know how salespersons survive. From day 1, I learnt how money is hard to earned. On my second day, I learnt that how you treat others is the standard you set for yourself. Got that from tumblr and it's really apr for the situation I'm in. I am not the nicest person around and could have quite a temper when treated unfairly. However I wouldn't glare or feel angry when I'm ignored my a customer. Maybe I'm born to be in sales or just born to tolerate nasty stuff just to get my pay. Either way it's not that bad. Life goes on. I can't wait for my break though. I'm already thinking of having a nice quiet day at a cafe but it seems my earliest off day is next Friday? Or weekend? Sigh.... Life is tough....

I'm so tired despite a 12 hours sleep. Yesterday was utterly exhausting. Waking up after 4 hours and standing the entire bus journey to yishun and standing throughout the 6 hours I was at northbrooks secondary. After which running off to expo for the job training. My feet hurt like crap yesterday and I'm so worried about the today's new expo job with ode till sun. Like It didn't occur to me my feet would hurt consecutively for 4 days:( sigh.... Ok don't complain. At least I've ode with me for the 4 days and we will reach the sales target. I can't wait for Monday. But then the next job starts on tues. sigh.... :(

"We only write about two feelings: one is the first day of summer when you and all of your friends are standing on the edge of a cliff watching the sun set and being overcome with all of your hopes and dreams at once. The other is when you’re walking alone in the rain and realize you will be alone forever."

Losing

How do you know if you're losing or simply letting go?

Yes

I'm approximately 24 hours I will be liberated and finally welcoming summer with my open arms! I've never felt like a need a break more than this time cos I just feel so crushed with all the studying and the syllabus I find so hard to understand and remember.

But it's okay. I should move on. No matter how I did or will do this sem, I will work harder the next. I will remember how important consistent work and questioning the course work is. I will be efficient and effective while studying and have a strong aim in mind. I can do it!!

Summer, please come now!!

To love

Paulo Coelho always manage to restore my faith in love, life and all things I've always been doubtful of. After reading By the River Piedra I sat down and wept, I feel like he understands the minute pain and suffering people goes through. I wouldn't go as far to say the book hits home but it did make me feel like being a better person and to try and restore my faith in many things I've lost hope in. I hope I achieve that eventually.

And sorry to the people in my life if I've been a portal of negativity. I will try to change that.