when the days are hard, you either hope to go back to the past where everything were easier, or you think about the future, of how things is eventually going to be better soon.
after coming to meridian, i realize that no, its not that life in meridian is tough. its me. i've become weaker, not as strong and resilient as before.
i think i'm being thrown in reality where i meet people who are ugly. as in ugly inside. and there are those, who weren't ugly before, but they get uglier as i know them.
it's scary when things change, and worse when they change for the worst.
but i'm going to hang on to what is real to me, what i know i have. what i have is enough, i don't need more.
and i hope i come out of all these stronger and wiser.
