want nobody nobody but you

i read this:
"I always wondered why birds choose to stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on earth, then I ask myself the same question."

it got me thinking about the freedom passage we read. why are we scared when we're about to face the thing we've always wanted the most. this week has been lots of thinking stuff bubbling in my head. i 've always tried to imagine how things would change if i chose to do smth else instead. i think i've always been dwelling in the past. i can't forget, can't stop wishing, can't move on.
talking to shi make me think about what i used to be and how i'm still what i used to be. sigh. i dont want to think of such stuff cause it just screw me up and like make me so sad and all that shit.
okay, back to reality. life is pretty much horrible, but i dont think its going to be as bad as o levles. i'm hanging on. hahah. okee dokeee. bye!


learn to look and you will see more than others

and we say hello to goodbye

Ran 2.4 today and i passed with like 15 smth. like srsly the first time i passed/do well. anyway, i called and told mummy and she wasnt surprised. and when i went home and told my maid i passed, she told me my mum prayed for me in the morning.
its like so sweet right?! and she didnt even tell me.
sigh. it makes me all warm and gooey inside. and the last time i went all warm and gooey and was blushing was when i saw Torres(a football player) on tv. god, hes damn hot. like megan fox hot. sigh. i want to be megan fox hot too.& if i'm that hot one day (i am entitled to my dreams okay?!)i will like go tattoo my body tooo. HAHAH!!!!
okay, this week is going by so slowly. i'm so going to screw up the upcoming formative test shit. and prolly perlims and my freaking O's too.
nononoonono. its all about the attitude and how much i'm willing to work for the results. i can do it. i can.i can.i can.
anyway, i've been hearing songs, like theres, before the worst, before the storm all that. i think people should start thinking of after. like after the torturing hell like o levles. i swear i can't freaking wait for o levles to be over. till then, i will just like sleep study and eat.
well, tata!

PSS: i love all miley songs!

Standing out in the rain
knowing that it's really over
please don't leave me alone
Flooded with all this pain
knowing that i'll never hold you
like I did before the storm

so close yet so far, its tearing me apart

Have been studying and studying and reading and then sleeping.
i can't wait for O's to be over. i'm not going to screw it up.
3 more months. i can do it.

you were almost enough, almost worth it, almost mine

for all that it was worth

i'm tired. my right arm hurts and i dont know why and i didnt realise it till like i went swimming. i'm tired, i want to sleep/study but i'm tired slackish and sleepy. i'm sick of school and o levels but i'm used to it all. o levels is too soon and yet so far away. i don't have much time and yet i'm wasting time. all i want to do is drink coke and read nora roberts storybooks but i've so many homework and obligations. i dont want to disappoint and yet i'm not even trying. i hate my life but yet i realise i'm so damn lucky comapred to so many others.
i can see where i want to be.
But i just can't see how i will ever get there.
i've almost everything i want
But not the damn thing i want most.

i'm tired. so damn tired.

you only know what you've lost till it's gone

i'm so goddamn tired. after i came back home from a stressful period of ir i plonk down and slept till dinner. i've yet to reply msgs from shi and cheryl. SHI DONT WORRY FOR YA ORAL! i'm sure A1 is in your bag alrdy.
anyway, just a quickie update, i wrote the check for my tuition worngly like AGAIN. god actually i didnt write it. cheryl did and i just told her what to write wrongly. mummy laughed it off and asked me what was the staff reaction. well i guess shes resigned to the fact that i will give her late payments forever. hahaha.
anyway, have been reading a little of cheryl's book. regarding Princess Diana. makes me wonder about so many stuff about life. like how she has so much but not the only thing she ever wanted. it makes me more sure that life is all about the choices you make. like if you make a wrong choice, your life would turn out totally different. and though there is so much in life, there's only so little you could ever have. well, life is fair and unfair like that. i wonder if princess diana passed away with regrets, like knowing she has soo many stuff she wants to do/see but has yet to do it. i don't ever want to leave like that. cheryl, i know what i want. i want to be happy and to be able to leave this world without qualms or any regrets. i'm going to live life to the fullest and make use of all i have. which is sooo many, compared to the less fortunate people. sigh, though i still think its sucks to be me, i guess i should try to make it rock instead huh.
Smile Always!

you,maybe

i'm so tired. have been like sleeping alot. school is so draining.and with ir now, god i'll probably die.
last sat
studied with sharon at starbucks. i think we talked more. hahah. like srsly we've so much things to talk about. and if you're reading this sharon, I WILL NOT DO (you know what) until year 2. hmpf, plus i bought white choco mocha cause i really want to try it and not cause i'm so lame to prove you wrong. haha seriously. but who am i kidding, i think sharon of all know me like inside out. haha. year 2010? and i know only 5 football players:0
okeee dokeee not making any sense. i'm going to go read or do some hw. glad tmr is youth day. omg i could totally make use of tmr like really. heeheexxxx.

I see the sparkle of a million flashlights
A wonderwall of stars
But the one that's shining out so bright is the one right where you are

he could be the one

omigod, was watching hannah season 3. episode 18 on you know where (youtube!) and its so nice. shi if you're reading this GO WATCH NOWW. sigh. i love hannah shows.
been reading and doing homework these days. rarely watch tv now. which is a good thing. and i should like really start studying for prelims so i wouldnt regret and al that shit. YES ZING I CAN DO IT!
life sucks but i guess i'll just wait for it to rock.
heeheex. so gay.
omigod i love hannah and jake and the prom book and nora roberts murder book and a math minus area and dydx and phy. like seriously. hahaha.
okeedokeee, i'm going swiming and then time to hit the books.
cyaaaaa

thought you say it was easy
listening to your heart