17 January 2014

On my way home from work today at Bhg. I'm so thankful for the great sales I have today. Sold another men's festive set today and it's funny cos I do count myself a men's festive set pro cos I thought I sold the remaining sets at bhg but there are 3 more in the storeroom and two remaining after today. May tomorrow be a day I sold all the festive sets left. Hahaha. 

I am thankful for the fun conversation I had with Vivien today and for my friends in my life. I am thankful for life and the times I see light when it's dark. 

16 January 2014

Has only one hour of class and I had brunch with sharkn before going for class and I'm so thankful for having Sharon with me every step as I grow up. She is one of the people I trust with all my heart. We grew up, change and become different people from who we were in primary 3 and we accepted and supported each other alog the journey. I am thankful for the friendship we share and for the bond and love we share. 

Went home after classes and I cooked spaghetti for dinner though it sucked but Amanda liked it. Cooked porridge for mummy but all I did was add pork inside. Hahaha.  I'm so thankful for mummy and how deeply she love us and for always putting us before anything else. I'm going to turn 21 soon and my parents and Jorina have been there since I was born. I couldn't have achieved whatever little I Achieve and experience the great opportunities I was offered without them.  I feel birthdays should be a day to thank the people in your life instead. To thank them for being in your life and enriching it. 

13/14 January 2014

Had my first two days of school and the classes are so daunting and I don't feel confident about doing better:( but it's ok, it only the initial stage. It will get better I'm sure! I must have faith and put in enough effort! I feel closer to my uni clique this time. Sometimes I feel like I've slowly evolved into someone who doesn't make friends easily.... I hate being so closed up and cynical but sometimes it's just my coping mechanism. Have a elective with jiayi and it's proven to be boring but my eye candy is in the same class too! And he's still in sg, what are the odds. It's fated. I kid. Hahaha. On a side note, can life get better already:( I feel so.... Suffocated with all the negative thoughts swimming in my head and I can't do anything about it. Ok.... This post has nothing to be thankful for... But I thank god for my amazing parents who provided so much for me in life and for the opportunities and comfort they have given to me. I think about them and it makes me want to work hard for my future so they can have as much as they have given me. And I can do it. 

15th January 2014

Worked today at Rc cos I didn't have any classes. Had great sales and I'm so thankful for that. Despite coming down with flu and sore throat, I got better through the day. Got home after a long day and daddy and mummy are still not home yet. Is it normal to worry/think that they met with something unpleasant when they come home late, which is probably about a couple of times a year. And they don't even answer their phone and times like this. Tsk tsk. 

I'm a little sad these days. Ok, maybe not sad, just worrying. I hate having my mind full of worries and consciousness of the things I ignore/ try to not think about. Strawberry swing by Coldplay is helping my emotions to get by and I thank god for that. 

It's such a beautiful song and I wish to dedicate it to everyone I love. For the times we wish to go back to who we once were and for the times we look back into our youthful and innocent times untainted by reality, this song bring me back to one of the time when I was 16 and Cheryl comes over often and we will spend time studying and at the playground and sleeping. I ache for the simplicity and our ingenuity then. I can't remember many details of the past years cos my memory is so limited but things that I remember I remember in full details and I close my eyes and I feel like I it happened just a couple of days ago. Yesterday Cheryl, jiayi and I chatted over Skype and we had such a long chat Cheryl fell asleep and disconnected and I talked with jiayi a while more before sleeping and I remember feeling so happy for catching up. But today it makes me sad for no reason. I don't need a lot of things in life, I really don't. But can I have all the things I need to always be with me. Can I not have change and uncertainty. Can I not look at some things I can't change and think how badly I want to change it/how things are wrong because I can't be the one in charge. I don't know what I am really saying but I think all the cynicism is clouding my mind today. 

Tomorrow will be a better day. 

15th January 2014

Worked today at Rc cos I didn't have any classes. Had great sales and I'm so thankful for that. Despite coming down with flu and sore throat, I got better through the day. Got home after a long day and daddy and mummy are still not home yet. Is it normal to worry/think that they met with something unpleasant when they come home late, which is probably about a couple of times a year. And they don't even answer their phone and times like this. Tsk tsk. 

I'm a little sad these days. Ok, maybe not sad, just worrying. I hate having my mind full of worries and consciousness of the things I ignore/ try to not think about. Strawberry swing by Coldplay is helping my emotions to get by and I thank god for that. 

It's such a beautiful song and I wish to dedicate it to everyone I love. For the times we wish to go back to who we once were and for the times we look back into our youthful and innocent times untainted by reality, this song bring me back to one of the time when I was 16 and Cheryl comes over often and we will spend time studying and at the playground and sleeping. I ache for the simplicity and our ingenuity then. I can't remember many details of the past years cos my memory is so limited but things that I remember I remember in full details and I close my eyes and I feel like I it happened just a couple of days ago. Yesterday Cheryl, jiayi and I chatted over Skype and we had such a long chat Cheryl fell asleep and disconnected and I talked with jiayi a while more before sleeping and I remember feeling so happy for catching up. But today it makes me sad for no reason. I don't need a lot of things in life, I really don't. But can I have all the things I need to always be with me. Can I not have change and uncertainty. Can I not look at some things I can't change and think how badly I want to change it/how things are wrong because I can't be the one in charge. I don't know what I am really saying but I think all the cynicism is clouding my mind today. 

Tomorrow will be a better day. 

8/9/10/11/12 January 2014

Had a splendid three days. On the 8th, I Met the uni Clique for lunch and we had fun catching up over spicy Korean food and gift exchange!  After that I met Shi and ju for dinner but we wound up eating cakes and drinking tea at Lady M. Really enjoyed their pastries and tea! 

On the 9th I met Sharon for brunch and had a great time catching up. It's great meeting someone you've known since forever cos you just talk so naturally and you explain so little cos you both were part of each other lives and conversations and happiness just flow so smoothly. After which, I visited two cafés with Kexin. Lynette and Jolene and time just pass so fast with them just by walking around and over eating and drinking. I'm thankful how my friends make me love life, they make everything ten times more enjoyable and meaningful and they lighten your spirits and take the weights off your mind. After that we head over to Vivien house for steamboat and gift exchange a and though I had a spooky encounter with the girls, I'm grateful for the amazing day I had and the thoughtful gift Kexin got me. Sometimes people can get gifts that make you happy, I don't know how they do it. But they just scream if sincerity and thoughtfulness. 

Spent the 10th with my family, picked Amanda from her class and brought her to tuition and I grateful for the relaxing day I had just chilling out and for the great dinner I had. 

Spent the 11th working but i was blessed with great sales though I'm thoroughly exhausted cos my eyes felt so tired and I was so sluggish after work. I hate being the mood breaker I usually am after work cos I get tired and irritable and my family have to put up with that but daddy would help me carry my bag and make me laugh and mummy would buy stuff for me. And it's just nice to sit in the car and listen to the radio and sing along to oldies if It starts playing songs I know and know I'm going back home to my bed and a warm shower. I'm thankful for the comfort I'm blessed with and for my beautiful support system I have backing me up. 

Spent the 12th at home for first half of the day and went shopping and looking at some houses. It'd be great if we get to move but life is already so blessed and I can't ask for more. Did some shopping for cny and sigh.... I think I srsly need to lose weight so I can start looking better. Despite so, I am thankful for the wonderful meals I had and for a wonderful day I had before school starts tomorrow. I'm dreading school a bit and putting off sleeping even though I'm sleepy typing this but I must seriously  keep up with the 365 days of gratitude tag so I can read back and remember how incredibly blessed I am each day and work towards being a happier person. 

I must really get a planner, gym/swim(can't believe I didn't do that the entire holiday), text Sharon tmr, plan my tutorial slots, pack my room and start printing out notes for the sem. 

Looking forward to a great sem ahead and I'll do even better this sem! Yes I can! 

8th January 2014

Had lunch with Zijing, Jaslyn, Rebekah and Javin at a Korean restaurant and I'm thankful for the wonderful meal we had and the company. I'm thankful for having a group of friends I can count on and for the help and support along the way. I'm thankful for being blessed with genuine people I know I can trust and rely on. 

Met Shi and ju for dinner and we had lovely desserts and tea and I'm so thankful for having them in my life. I'm thankful for the joy and happiness they bring into my life and the friendship life and god has blessed me with. 

Currently on the train now and eavesdropping on a couple conversation. The girl was telling the guy the plot of frozen rather animatedly and the guy was asking questions in between and I wonder if that's what goes on when I tell people stories. Them being mildly interested and filling up the holes of my narration with questions. How can we tell when people are really interested and when we are boring them? Sigh.... 

7th January 2014

Worked at centrepoint today and sales was very low and I was slightly late for work but manage to sell some products last minute and I'm thankful for the luck I'm blessed with even though I could have gotten the worse end of the stick. 

6th January 2014

Had work but I had a wonderful lunch with peishi and I'm grateful for the wonderful I was blessed with and though sales were pretty low, I'm grateful for a blessed day. 

5th January 2014

5th January 2014

Had a tiring day at work but all is well after it ended. Went to see some houses today and it'd be really nice if we get to move house this year. Thankful for the good meal we had today and for the wonderful opportunities life has given to me and my family. 

“It’s not enough to say the heart wants what it wants. I think of the ravine, the side dark with pines where we lounged through summer days, waiting for something to happen; and of the nights, walking the long way home, the stars so close they seemed to crown us. Once, I asked for your favorite feeling. You said hunger. It felt true then. It was as if we took the bit and bridle from our mouths. From that moment I told myself it was the not yet that I wanted, the moving, the toward—”

Mary Szybist, from “To Gabriela at the Donkey Sanctuary,” in Incarnadine: Poems (Graywolf Press, 2013)

4th January 2014

4th January 2014 

Worked today and I am grateful for the great sales I have today. Grateful for the nice uncle who gave me discount for my lunch and I am grateful for the support I have today from my family. Thank you for waiting for me till I finish work and buying food for me in case I am hungry. 

I am grateful for the ongoing conversations in whatsapp I have with my friends and thankful that I have friends I love and who love me too.

3rd January 2014

3rd January 2014

Worked today and I am grateful for the great sales I had today. And grateful for my family who waited for me to finish work and picked me up to have dinner together. I am grateful for the great dinner we have and grateful I get to go home comfortably. I am grateful for Vivien and Lynette who came by to chat with me and spend some time with me at the counter. I am grateful for having such wonderful people in my life :) 

2nd January 2014

2nd January 2014

Worked at bhg bugis today and I am grateful for the sales I had today. I am grateful how even though I've some accidents due to my first day of period, I had clothes to change into. 

1st jan 2014

1st jan 2014

Grateful for the wonderful lunch I had with Jorina and grateful for a family who supports me and take care of my needs and concerns. Thankful for us being together and for spending a wonderful day together. 

It's crazy how it's 2014 and I feel so out of touch with time. 2013 is the worst year of my life. But I feel like I've grown up and learn from all the unpleasant stuff. I don't know what to expect from 2014. I drafted out my resolutions and made sure they are reachable and pretty realistic. 

Sometimes I don't know what life really wants from me but I'm pretty sure of what I want from my life. It all boils down to very simple things. I want to be happy, I want my love ones to be happy and I want to live each day thankful and grateful for all that god and life has blessed me with. I think this is a pretty good place to start out with 365 days of grateful moments. 

May 2014 be full of moments that are enriching, helpful and may I be strong and mature enough to handle the good and the bad and become a better person.