life is a bitch

School is starting tomorrow. i'm going to use the com less. still going to read my nora roberts murder books(god they're better than love). going to study my ass off and just dont have a life cause thats what o levles is. all i wish is that i can get into mj and like totally not regret and hate myself cause i didnt make use of the miserable 120 days left. i have miley cyrus The climb to keep me going, and so many sweet encouraging besties. i can do it. get over the 4 months + 2 weeks of exam. I CAN DO IT!

you can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare

look before you fall

i'm glad school is re-opening. cause since i didnt make use of the june holidays to study, i most probably will just waste the extra one week. plus its not like they're going to push back o levels right. god, how much i wish they can do that.
sharon & i went over to zing's house today. studied swam talk and talk and talk and ate lunch at jacks place took photos, but not with my cam cause i'll most probably not upload or send to anyone. & we're going to do that like everyday after o levels and learn smth new and likehave a freaking life.
oh and i realise i've like 600++ photos in my phone and like god knows how many in my cam. and i've yet to upload like half of it. i'll do that after o lvls. i srsly can't wait for o levels to be over. till then i'll stop using the com so often and probably study till i'm like half dead.
kay,bye!

cause it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now

young wild and free

sorry i haven't been updating and posting photos! i guess you guys should just get my memory stick next time. sorry!

last fri, 10 of us:
me, ju, cheryl, shi, adel,carina,odelia, emm amanda and zq went to emm house for a bbq. watched hannah montana movie first and it was good but i expected more. bbq was really fun, hahah took pictures played truth without the dare and drank alot alot of stuff. hahah ate half cooked and mostly cooked food. it was great. i love spending time with all of them, after o levels we're going to like have it again and again and again. haha! love you all much much!

yesterday
me sharon and zing had steamboat at sharon house. watched monster vs aliens and it was so funny i laughed like hell. dom(sharon's bro) was scary but still nice. hes like what i was in pri sch. without worries and free. we went to barneys and i lovee the swing. i love how i can swing and lie back looking at the sky and my hair flying wildy cause of the wind. hahah okay, thats like really exxagerating. WE MUST GO TO BARNEYS MORE and we'll talk and dream and cam whore till we get so tired we just fall asleep with smiles on our faces. hahah love you guys best!

today
studied with sharon at macs and we took pictures, drank milo, ate hershey pie, ate slighlty uncooked fries and borrowed storybooks. talked and laugh. sigh. i love talking and laughing and cam whoring.
i can't wait for o levels to end. i wish it would end really soon. and i'll go to mj and be happy. sigh.
i'm really kind of high now. hahha, dont know why! bye!

if people were rain, i was drzzle and you were hurricane

no expectations

cip is horrible, but i'm not going to talk about it cause its unfair to the kids.
after cip, sharon & i went to mc (not spelled as macs) :0 and we talked. sharon is like the listerner and the talker kind. i guess i told her stuff i should have told her long ago. among anyone i know, sharon gives like the best advice. and like after saying everything i guess maybe i feel less alone. sharon was like looking at me and asking if i have like xin shi. hahah, i think we've alry established a type of friendship where you can just look and know like how each other thinks. sharon is like someone i wish i will be if i ever have to choose to be someone else. hahha. okay, like i just typed a whole paragraph of sharon.
today shi told me stuff and i felt like so bad. like i couldnt help her feel much better than shes feeling now. she reminded me of like soo much stuff. maybe i should have told her about what happened to me before. i just felt like theres so much more i could do but i'm like not doing anything at all. sigh. thats why i hate my life. like srsly. Fml.
reading r's blog let me realise we've so much in common. i guess that sometimes people that we love and meant so much to us, have a special bond with us, forever. i love the word forever. its like right after how much i love the word fuck. but fuck is like really more applicable to my life.
i wish i'm not me.

heart on my sleeve;why can't you see

waking up at 5 plus in the morning is horrible but luckily mac breakfast and stupid cheryl makes it slightly better.
my life is horrible, my results is worse and i hate everything about being me.
i wish i'm hannah or taylor swift.
Sigh. ice cream before tuition. i hope everything goes back to normal.
i love taylor swift songs and her lyrics are like really cool.
hannah is awesoome as ever.
and i just thought about something. i think guys hate bof. cause its like every girl fantasy. hard to beat huh. hahah

You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier