Cedele after class with Kexin and Jolene and in between catch ups and chicken soup with white bread, I realize how much I will miss this. Being young, having tea and talking in weekday afternoons when I grow older and start working. I can comfortably tell them what my worries and frustrations in a haphazard and confused manner and they get it and assure me it's all ok. I know it's ok. I mean it's not me and there's no point taking everything so seriously. I mean why must I bother so much right?
Went for the aisec talk after and it was too draggy and boring we left to have dinner at hwang's. wished Lynette joined us earlier though. And it got me thinking, what if all the friends important to me were all in Nus too, wouldn't that be great? But that's the point, nobody ever misses anyone till the person starts to leave. I can't believe how in next month, Cheryl and Zing is leaving for uk. It matters that they are not physically close, not physically, geographically. It matters with an unexplainable importance. And no, I'm not going to think about how i'm starting to lose all the people important to me. I won't. Things will be alright. Yes, it will.
Ok, so Yesterday was me working 8 hours and dinner with Odelia. We are doing well with the Kpi thing. Shared with her a couple of nagging thoughts but she smoothed everything over with a new drama she's currently watching.
I'm trying to keep a sane mind.
Somehow I feel this is a period of tests and broken mess, ok I exaggerate but it is. And I'm going to stay sane for the good times. I know life and god doesn't promise the brightest of days but my faith believe in them. I will be happy. Mommy and daddy and Amanda will be too. We will all be happy soon.
Till then, there's always tomorrow.
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