Searching for lightness

The best days are the ones you spend at home, taking naps, waking up fully rested, face bare and hair unruffled by the wind. Soft, light. Is it just me searching for a lightness of being? I don't want to be bound down to the ground by beliefs and commitment but I prefer that certain things stay rooted. Morals, responsibilities, love. Life

Last month I witness many grey areas. People doing and saying things differently, the contradicting beliefs and actions, diverging wants and actions. I don't know. Have you thought about what is it people want? Simple. It always is simple. People want simple things but I don't think simple things make them happy. Me? I just want two things. Security and stability. Maybe that's what I am lacking now in life. But that would be something I will always remember to appreciate and hold on tightly to. 

Ziying is leaving this Friday and Cheryl he following Saturday. I have my next week packed with project meetings, classes, work, squeezing in dinners and breakfast and a day at gbtb. I write out my days in the scheduler and everything just looks so heavy. Things to do, work, meetings, due dates, presentations, assignments. I'm not asking when will it all end. All I'm thinking is under how much weight would a human then crumble?