No time for sadness

Had a busy but productive day at school  with jiayi. Projects and discussions and assignments are just so overwhelming when I've to deal with work and balancing life in general. There are so many friends you want to meet up and catch up over coffee or a meal, there are books you would like to read, things you would like to google and know more about. With Saturday looming I like not having time to think or worry excessively. Had a wonderful Sunday with Cheryl and jiayi and December will come in a matter of time. I would like to dwell in optimism. These days I look at life and the things that happen around me and to the people I care about, I feel terrified of life. Of what it may bring tomorrow when you neglect and assume. Everyday I am stronger and weaker. I push myself more, tests my limits and make myself work harder when it is not necessary. But simultaneously I grow weaker in the face of life, at the things i cannot predict or control. I constantly worry I am not strong enough, that around the corner something I can't handle will spring up on me and everything I believe and work for would crumble and fall. But with all that has happened I realize how anyone is as strong as one sets out to be. Life would be good as long as I believe in myself a d everyday I would be closer to my dreams and everything I want to achieve in life.