“You can never teach a guy to love you the way you wanted to be loved. You have to wait for him to do it in his own way, in his own time, that’s the saddest part of being a girl. But you can never teach a girl to love the guy back the way she did before if she already grew tired and fed up understanding and waiting to be appreciated and loved the way she deserves to be loved, that’s the saddest part of being an insensitive man.”
How do you describe the feeling of knowing there are people out there who hurts while loving, hurts trying not to love, hurts trying to be loved. For a brief moment you could feel like them without being in any of the category, at times when you're listening to a sad love song, when you are hearing people love stories or when you start thinking of love on bus and train rides, and you see everything going by so quickly, you see things changing so quickly and you know that yes, love is hard, at times love may be worth it, at times love may hurt, some love last, some love don't, but to what point do we finally let go and detach ourselves from the things we want to badly to latch ourself on?
To me, it would not be the point where you're hopelessly disappointed countless times, but when the people you love, the people you're fighting for stop trying, stop fighting, because you are just not worth it. But you're not worth it to them, it doesn't mean you are not worthy on your own. So you find your steps and continue on the path of life, you learn to see things quickly so even when things changes, you remembered at least what once happened, you learn to change course, take steps to others places to get things that are important in your life, you learn to be with yourself, learnt that the most important relationship in life is the one with yourself. If you can't love, accept, understand, know, fight for yourself, then you will just be the ones who crumble when there are setbacks in life.
No, it's not that I bruise easily, that I give up on things and be cynical about the larger issue over small issues, it's just that I'm careful, I'm sure, i'm my own warrior because even though every worrier needs a warrior, I have learnt to be my own warrior.
"You can like the life you're living, you can live the life you like. But nothing stays, in 50 years or so, it's gonna change you know."
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