One and only sunshine lady

"I'm only as happy as I want to be."

I know happiness is a choice and that I could be happy just by taking certain things lightly, looking past the small issues and the unexpected situations. But I guess I just want to have a fixed emotional state, with only bouts of elation and unhappy moments. I want to be neutral, chill, cool and level headed. To be surprised when good things happen and appreciate it, but also take negativity as positively as I can, to overcome it easily and believe it to be only fleeting and temporary, I want to be a boat in a smooth sea, with days of sunlight and wind, but also days of storms and tribulations, but each I overcome and learn and live and love.
I don't want to magnify my happiness more than it is, I want to keep experiencing greater joy, enjoy the small ones and stay neutral for the rest of the days. I want my low moments to be short lived, but important so I remember to appreciate small joy, I want to be rich in terms of experiences, good and bad, I want to be a philosopher in my own right, I want to live, to truly participate in everything and have few regrets, I want to share what I have, to give, to receive, to love and to be loved.

I want to be the best of me.