Valentine

While I was typing away on the keyboard at work today and discreetly texting Cheryl, I remembered the 2011's valentine's day. So some JCs teamed up for flower delivery among each other and I didn't catch the announcement because well, who listens to announcement right? So naturally I didn't know that I could send her flowers without meeting up with her and giving her a bunch of overpriced flowers. I remembered sitting on the last row of the lecture hall and Tiara was passing us the roses and she passed me a stalk, and I was shocked, and while I was reading the messages tied on the rose, I had 4 others passed to me because the crazy girl felt that 5 looks prettier. And I couldn't help but tear while reading her messages. It was hard being in different jc, having different schedules and so many commitment, but somehow our friendship stay strong over the years because Singapore is only so small, we can meet when time permits, when our schedules match, when we plan or shift our other plans around.

And then it struck me how I could no longer go to popular and get a huge ass card cos I was so guilty for not sending her flowers, trying to fill up the spaces with too many words and making her sit in front of me so that I can write on the card but not allowing her to read. How I can't type stupid and crazy things I would never text to any other human being except her, how I can't see her even for an hour during lunch when she will be in uk in a year time.

Stupid Cheryl, it's your fault really. Should have just studied gp, should probably have went to temasek to take a law diploma, should have went for ntu accountancy, you could have done so many things to avoid this:(

I know leaving would be hard for you and I can already tear imagining sending you off at the airport, it's just so sad that you will have to leave even though it's not now, we still have months. But slowly we will only have days, we will be able to count the days with out fingers and toes, and then with our fingers, and then it will be too soon, always too soon.

:( sigh..... I cannot say when you're in uk I how, cos I know uk will be tough, tougher than me being in Singapore and having people we are familiar with around. But you will have to adapt and live in a totally different environment. It will be so much harder on you. So we have to train to be strong!! We will be strong and our friendship will be strong! I believe that! And thank you, for being more than a best friend, you're like my fourth finger on my left hand. That's how important you are:) I love you Cheryl!