someone like me, someone like you, somebody

i think she sang this song beautifully.
its so cool isnt it, to be able to sing like this, such that when people hear them, they could feel the emotions behind the lyrics and the song. and writers too, they could write and describe how you feel perfectly. and actors, for acting out the emotions and everything the script wants to tell, show to the audience.

anyway, i've decided to audition. no point in not trying. i should at least just try and even if i embarass myself, too bad. i'm not a singer. but at least i tried.
life is so hard nowadays. everyone is expecting something from you, wanting a piece, a part of you. sometimes when you're stretched too thin, i wonder what happens. like you read reports of people commiting suicide, its so sad, like how can they just give up and leave behind everything and everyone they love. but i guess i can understand how they feel, living a life without hope, faith and belief in themselves. but it takes courage doesnt it. to just let it all go, give it all up. but i guess it takes less courage and effort as compared to continue to live.

And promos is going to come in about 2 months time. so little time, and god knows what i;m doing with my life. i think i'm going to stop using the com soon. got to give promos a good shot. i was thinking back how i was like in primary school, sharon agreed that i've changed. i was more daring i guess, almost fearless, impulsive, always jumping into things without thinking. now, i think i lost my muchness. lost the courage, the fight. is it because things are getting harder or i've become weaker. i think i'm tired. but i need to see this through. no other way out. sigh. i guess i dont need wishes. i need strength, courage and faith. i hope i pull through. sigh.

And cheryl, we can do it. i believe in you, in myself. we've no other choice but to do well and make it. but we've each other, no matter what. and maybe one day, we can realise our dreams and look back feeling so proud of ourselves for making it. i love you and we must be stronger and we must must must try our best! we can do it!