Now that most of the projects are roughly over, revision for finals are starting and I am confident I got most of it. I can still do average this sem I think. I will try to make it better. I will try. So far the whole of summer is going to be internship. Managed to secure one because Cheryl helped me. And now I might be getting another one and I don't know if I can refuse that cos it would see so rude. It's okay. I imagine I can do both this summer. That's all. That's all I have planned so far for summer and it's so miserable just thinking about it. I was thinking of how I must find things that make me happy, things that would psych me up. But seriously, nothing. Besides work, I will probably get to have scattered dinner across the days with different group of people. Maybe get to do something fun with the wifeys, a cook out with the girls. Movies with the my uni friends. That's all. It makes me sad. Not that I don't get to meet my friends often but rather besides meeting people who make me happy. What about doing things that make me happy. But then again, I don't even know what make me happy anymore.
Breathe. I must remember to breathe
Some things in my mind:
I can't be happy for you, I wish I can but I really can't.
Why are things so hard for you, I wish it's better, I wish you'd do better, I wish you'll get what you want.
I need to think of at least one happy thing each day before I implode from stress.
Why can't I be the way I think I should be. Or am I just never gonna be who I want to be.
When will things get better.
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