I have no idea how time fly by so fast that I am just two weeks away from the last day of my semester. No. I am not about to whine about how time flies but rather how little time I spend on myself? I think when some people look back, they will find they 20s spent with their boyfriends. Some, with their books. Some their friends and activities and strangely I don't spend most of my time studying, or hanging out with my friends and neither do I have a boyfriend. So where did all my time go? Seriously. I hope I'm not wasting all these time away. Maybe I should have something to focus on. A hobby perhaps.
Other than that I do find myself increasingly mean these days. Not replying messages or calls from Shi or my grandma. It's just.... I feel like sometimes you know what people are going to say and you don't want to reply those messages asking you if you've done this or that, or people making plans when you're barely even halfway through the exam period or people whining about their lives or people worrying about you. It's just so exhausting having to answer to people. They increase your irritation by doing nothing but they just irritate you because you don't want to be reminded of stuff you've no time to think about.
Ok. Rant over. I give myself twenty minutes. Then I have to go and just finish typing out my notes and then sleep and the cycle repeats itself tomorrow. I need to feel like I should breathe. That there is a reason to breathe.
On a side note can I just get the damn resume typed out. I feel so bad cos I know how Cheryl helped me so much with this but I'm procrastinating on this because I just feel so... Insecure about my knowledge and I have no idea if I will be more of a burden than I already am. Sigh.... I must remember to have faith in myself.
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