so lucky, so strong, so proud

i wonder why i feel lost so often, and why i feel okay after a few days and then i'm back to feeling lost.
i havent been making full use of the weekend and friday but i did what i could. i've to quickly send the wr and do whatever econs stuff and study for physics quiz. there is so many physics quizzes recently. sometimes i feel like i'm in a bottle, those beer kind, with the really thin long necks. when i'm so sick and tired and i want to get out, i've to squeeze and squeeze through that thin column to try to get out. but when i finally got out, i realise being out was not good as i expect it to be, and then i wish to return, to that bottle, to that hole. well, i dont know what i want actually, but someone told me that when you dont know what you're doing and what you want, just do whatever you're supposed to do and you'll get to somewhere eventually.
i promise to work hard for promos, after that i need to escape. i will have to go somewhere or experience something new. till then, i shall just do my work.


What hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say and watching you walk away. And never knowing what could’ve been and not saying that loving you is what I was trying to do.
Rascal Flatts “What Hurts The Most”