i miss tkgs.
i miss going back to school on jan has been like a tradition for 10 years. it feels really weird seeing people in uniforms and walking about with their friends. & i can't remember what i did after the first day of school last year.
suddenly i miss wearing our school uniform and the canteen food and class breaks where we would gather around and talk. i miss times where shi will bully amanda or bully me and amanda will help me out. i miss miss yeo funny lessons and her life "teachings". i miss being so afraid and making sure i do every physics homework properly. i miss cheryl pleading me to go to the teacher locker with her and carrying heavy physics file. i miss morning assembly with ju right behind me and i even miss the prefect who will always tell me to pull up my socks, and i will tell ju i'm so tired of people telling me to pull up my socks(like i take it in the sense that i'm not working hard enough). i miss after school physics lessons with mr seah and bus rides home with cheryl and going for late lunch afterwards at kfc. i miss bus rides home with sharon where we would talk and plan about our days after o levels.
suddenly, everything seems to be over so quickly. suddenly, it seems like i'm slowly losing everything i use to have. just like when i was in sec 1 and when i went back to cz feeling like all of us are still so close but we've slowly grown apart.
suddenly i'm scared. of losing all i have. maybe i didnt cherish what i had before. maybe i took everything for granted. maybe nothing is meant to last forever.
Now, i'm going to turn 17 in about exactly a month time. i'm going to take my results and go to wherever i'm going depends on my results. i feel like this 2 months or the past year have pass to fast. i'm hoping everything will come to a stop, or go back to the time when i was happier when i knew lesser and felt more.
But i've realised life is a race. And i'm always seeing everyone that matter run too far ahead of me, moving on, living the new life. maybe i should be like them, learn to let it go. learn to run ahead and probably meet newer runners in the race.
Suddenly, i'm tired. tired of running forever. tired that everytime i'm used to something, things change and i'm thrown into an entirely differnt situation and i'm expected to get used to it.
But maybe, just maybe this time its different. maybe this time i will have what i thought used to exist.
forever
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Joce! I so did not bully you ok!!
ReplyDeleteIt was like rare. I only like draw pigs A Few times on your papers (As compared to Odelia's one )
Hahah But I don't mean you as a pig.
I miss the times at school too.
I guess it can't be helped. But hey who knows we'll actually be friends for a long time(:
Hahah maybe I'll come back bothering you with all my problems even after you start JC! Hahah
But even if not, I'll always remember you.
(&all your pictures plus your undying love for Rainie) Lol
So don't forget me either ok!
Thanks for everything and maybe everything won't be as bad as you think.
I have a feeling things will just get better for you.
Plus we'll always be your friends!
I'm really glad to have you as a friend(:
Anw can't wait for the bbq!(:
Miss you!
-Seowshi
Lol, you made me sound so irritating! But I supposed that's what we're together, always irritating each other :P
ReplyDeleteI also miss all the sharing late lunch with you and talking little stupid stuff and laughing loudly everywhere, doing stupid things and making people stare at us like we're crazy.
I miss how we can't even stand a day not messaging each other and how we swore not to message each other and end up after 5 hours, we will be messaging each other about how we feel about studying, especially how terribly sian we are.
I miss how sexist we are and saying "Guys" like they were the most horrible things on earth.
I miss how we have little funny codes and jokes that no one else understands and only we feel that it's funny.
Let's try kay? We have to keep to our promise about messaging each other at least 2 days in a week and meet up at least twice in a month!
And don't worry! I know you will do well in JC, since you're so KAWAII and nice to be with! (: