too good to last

This week would finally be my last week to work! i'm so glad that i don't have to fry donuts and pack breads and walk home with blisters and aching toes. And not to mention smelling like bread.
But after all i guess i learnt alot. i can't wait for jc life to start. well thats if i get into mj, which i will. i must believe. i hope i can start everything anew. change my attitude towards my studies and finally decide on my future job.
Today i went back to cz to pick amanda up from school and i realise i've alrdy stop thinking about the days i used to spend in cz. of course i remember the friends and the memories i had there. But i guess i've let go of it. i think we would never know whether we let go unless we really see the person/face the thing we've to put behind.
i've thought i'm always hanging on but somehow just seeing someone i used to think meant so much to me turn out to be so normal. i guess in love, i've always expected fireworks, the quicken hearbeats but still a flush happiness and excitement in my heart. But i guess some things dont work that way.
i'm surprised to find some realistic in me. i thought i was always too idealistic, too hopeful. but i guess its for the best.
In 2010, i think i've learn to move on. its a start. but of course i will remember the past. But i will never let it pull me back. instead, i will be the one who would still constantly look back and smile at the memories that once touched me.
I could say i'm relived i guess.
17. so young but i guess i'm actually maturing!