15th January 2014

Worked today at Rc cos I didn't have any classes. Had great sales and I'm so thankful for that. Despite coming down with flu and sore throat, I got better through the day. Got home after a long day and daddy and mummy are still not home yet. Is it normal to worry/think that they met with something unpleasant when they come home late, which is probably about a couple of times a year. And they don't even answer their phone and times like this. Tsk tsk. 

I'm a little sad these days. Ok, maybe not sad, just worrying. I hate having my mind full of worries and consciousness of the things I ignore/ try to not think about. Strawberry swing by Coldplay is helping my emotions to get by and I thank god for that. 

It's such a beautiful song and I wish to dedicate it to everyone I love. For the times we wish to go back to who we once were and for the times we look back into our youthful and innocent times untainted by reality, this song bring me back to one of the time when I was 16 and Cheryl comes over often and we will spend time studying and at the playground and sleeping. I ache for the simplicity and our ingenuity then. I can't remember many details of the past years cos my memory is so limited but things that I remember I remember in full details and I close my eyes and I feel like I it happened just a couple of days ago. Yesterday Cheryl, jiayi and I chatted over Skype and we had such a long chat Cheryl fell asleep and disconnected and I talked with jiayi a while more before sleeping and I remember feeling so happy for catching up. But today it makes me sad for no reason. I don't need a lot of things in life, I really don't. But can I have all the things I need to always be with me. Can I not have change and uncertainty. Can I not look at some things I can't change and think how badly I want to change it/how things are wrong because I can't be the one in charge. I don't know what I am really saying but I think all the cynicism is clouding my mind today. 

Tomorrow will be a better day.