Forgive yourself

Studying for finals is especially tedious this time cos I can't seem to grasp certain concepts no matter how much I tried. I feel like I'm not absorbing fast enough, not understanding and applying all the concepts as I should. I regretted not catching up on my work the days leading up to finals and not being consistent throughout. But ugh... It's just so hard cos I've no motivation whatsoever. I just can't bring myself to do work. I'm trying not to hate on myself too much cos I know I'll do badly and it's all my fault but I just feel like I'm not ready. I don't want to do this. Last sem wasn't that bad. I didn't had that sense that I am so terribly unsuitable for this course till this sem:( sigh... It's okay. I will just study, go through finals. Sort out my thoughts during summer and start next year afresh. I know I can do it but I know I can't do it now? Does it make sense? Where's my confidence :(