Utterly

I'm scared but I can't say it loud. I can never say the things I feel intensely about. I'm hoping you would see that. You would see through me.
I'm reminded of the scene where chuck and blair met at the paris train station. From her beautiful red dress to the tears swelling in her eyes, to chuck's love and forlorn. But the music is what did it for me. "I'm in here. Can anybody see me? Can anybody help?"
Sometimes everyone wants to put their shields down. But they can't.
Maybe I don't know what I want, so I go after what others have and I don't so I can fill up the gaps.
It's time to figure myself out.