Time after time

I'm cynical.
I'm scared of rejection.
I worry a lot.
I tend to think negatively.
I give others bad first impression.
I'm not observant.
I'm wary of the opposite sex.
I don't make friends easily.
I've low self esteem.
I'm sarcastic.
I'm scared of people who have an emotional hold on me.
I like to be alone and yet I'm lonely.
I share problems I no longer think are problems.
I'm bad at expressing what I really feel.
I hurt others so they wouldn't hurt me first.
I like to think i'm smart when I'm not.
I get hurt easily.
I say I don't believe in love but sometimes I do.
I want to be happy but everything I do is keeping me away from being happy.
I make bad decisions.
I procrastinate too much.
I'm too lazy.
I'm aimless.
I like to give others advice I don't heed myself.
I think about issues but I always circle around them and never truly understand them.
I've many unhappiness inside me but sometimes I forget them.
I think humans are alone no matter who they have beside them but I crave companion.
I don't care.
I can't express myself the way I want to.
I'm afraid of showing emotions to those I'm not close to.
I'm afraid of failure but I never fight to keep what's mine.
I want too many things I know I'll never have.
I wonder how much I deserve and never appreciate what I have.
I sink, fall, collapse too often.
I expect too much from others.
I'm very forgetful.
I remember so little what's important.
I don't realize when I've hurt others.
I regret too much.
I never know and do what's right.
I'm a wreck and I hope someone can fix me.

I'm trying to swim so I won't sink.
I'm trying to pick myself up when I fall.
I'm trying to be stronger so I won't collapse.
I like to think things can't get any worse.
This is my type of faith.