Post promos is worse than during promos and before promos. Pw and everything is sucking everything out of me.
i'm tired of working hard.
i'm not complaining about the results i get. i tried my best did all i could. i felt that i deserved more for some subjects, felt that i deserve to get what i get for the rest.
But its like i've this sense that i'm useless. Like i can't get anything right, can't get anything done.
i srsly think i'm going to have like depression soon or like i'm just someone with low self confidence.
Up till now i dont know what i'm looking for. what i want.
But i know i want to get away from everything. from school, from my life.
i've been thinking what if i was born somewhere else, would i still be feeling what i'm feeling now, going through all these shit i'm going through now?
Or what if i'm a risk taker, i took off,and live a day as it is and expereience everything life has to offer and not what i'm told to do, will i be happier?
i'm confused and lost. i've doubts and negative thoughts coming into my mind like practically every single day of my life.
i'm not happy, i'm not satisfied. i feel like nothing.
And like the script says, nothing gets nothing.
but at least when you have nothing, you're spared the disappointment, cause you've nothing to lose.
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