Hello to whoever is reading my blog!
i've just watched gossip girl season finale.
to say the least, it was sad heart-breaking, thought provoking and disappointing, not because it was lousy. but because it wasnt a happy ending.
i think i'm too idealistic. i hate to wish for a happy ending and the worse is i do not get it. but how many happy endings are there in the world. i remember reading a quote that says "it takes a life time to get to- and they lived happily ever after".
its not that i want to stop believing. its the disapointment and the loss i feel when i'm thrown back into reality.
sometimes i wish i'm not me.
yesterday i was very very very lost and i got over it. nothing is worth while. the whole world is not going to stop just because i'm sad, just because i want to live in the past. sometimes it seems like the future is not a gift. i wouldnt say its a curse but i think i fear it. But i've got to move on. i've got to remember what my goals are at the end of the day. i must stay focused. i can do it. i believe in myself!
i'm not going to use the itouch anymore. its distracting. facebook is a curse. i've better things to do. i'm going to at least pass everything for mid years. i'm going to work hard. because i believe in myself. and nobody is going to stop me from what i want.
i need to believe that! yes i can. i can make it. i'm not going to regret. not going to regret when i see myself failing every single shit.
well, to my dear dear friends. i miss you guys so much. so much i cant describe it to you guys. things were so much better then. we were happier werent we. but life sucks, and the most sucky thing is we've to go through it. so lets do it tgt. we can get through this! i will support you guys anddddd be there for all of you forever. i love you, more than i can say. i love you all!!!!!!
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