i'm so nervous thinking about results and worrying and regretting and thinking about maybe i should have. i hate all these worrying and not knowing what to expect. like srsly if the day i take results and i did super badly and my parents give me the i told you so look i'll be so angry and so sad like i dont know what la. i hate how insecure i feel nowadays like i was hearing the radio and it was like o level students and my heart skipped a beat. i thought they were going to announce the date for results. i hate feeling like i'm going to do so badly and just screw up my life or whatever there is to screw up. i'm so scared.of doing badly, of falling out of expectations, of seeing the disappointed looks on my parents, of seeing everybody being so happy but me doing so badly.
i dont know what to expect or hope for now. just let me get into mj and i'll be the happiest girl ever.
i wish.
i hope that i wish hard enough for it to come true.
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